I am sitting with my head in my computer.

I click onto my Dashboard: No comments to moderate.

So I head over to Facebook. I read the one post that has appeared since my last visit. I check my pokes, my Facebook pages, my messages, my friend requests: nothing .

So I check my email inbox… send and receive: nothing. I reread a message that arrived earlier…

… before heading back to my Dashboard:  no new comments. No new notifications.

But what about Facebook? It’s been 60 seconds since I was last there. Anything can happen in one minute. But… nothing newI read the ads in the side-bar. Should I click onto one? No… Perhaps I should check the weather instead.

So instead of closing my computer and opening the door, and going outside to feel the weather for myself, I find myself at my iGoogle page. What does the gadget say? 27 degrees C? It doesn’t feel that warm.

Oh my, I’ve been away from my Dashboard for 2 minutes. Two whole minutes. I wonder what’s going on in the blogosphere. I must look: nothing is going on.

But I might have an email…

Or a notification on Facebook…

Oh I’ve forgotten to check my other email addresses… Hotmail… Yahoo… Perhaps I’m missing something really important: No, nothing.

Click, send and receive, click, click, send and receive…

And then I stop. What am I doing? Have I gone insane? This is not normal behaviour. What would people think if they could see me?

So I sit and think for a moment, wondering why I’m acting like this. And then I realise…

I am tired. It’s so much easier to sit here and click my way around the Internet 'just in case' keeping my brain in neutral… instead of getting up and doing something useful. I should close my computer. But first I need a plan. What will I do if I'm not clicking?

While I’m thinking about this problem, I realise at least 5 minutes has passed since I last checked Facebook, my Dashboard, all 3 email inboxes, my iGoogle page… Another thought: If I could work out Google +, I'd have somewhere else to visit. Should I look now? I've been meaning to do this... But first...

Click, click, send and receive… Check my favourite blogs… click, click, send and receiveWhat was that book I was meaning to buy?  I really should hunt down a copy… right now... Amazon... the Book Depository... Better World Books.

Click, click, send and receive, follow a link, click, click, ‘like’, send and receive, click, ‘like’…


Read a book, do the ironing, say some prayers, go outside and take some photos, sew, read to the girls, plan the NaNoWriMo novel, prepare dinner, bring in the washing, tidy the wardrobe, write a letter…Do something, anything... just stop clicking.

I’ll make some coffee…

But I wonder: is it safe to leave my computer? What about my emails and comments and posts? They'll still be here when I return. (Won't they?) And I might not get any emails or comments or post notifications for a long time. I can’t just sit here and wait… (Can I?)

… because if I don’t go and do something else, I really will become insane.

So I’m closing my computer. I get up and look out the window. It’s a beautiful day. Maybe it really is 27 degrees out there. I am going to make that coffee. I am going to sit at the garden table by the hedge… the garden table I bought but never use… and I am going to feel the sun on my skin and the breeze in my hair. I'm going to listen to the birds and enjoy the scent of the flowers...

And if you do want to comment on my pathetic behaviour, I'll be back later to attend to my Dashboard. 

Or should I just take my tablet outside with me... just in case... ?

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  1. Oh, Sue Elvis! You just made my morning. I did not sleep enough -- my own fault, as I could not find my bed yesterday -- and am tired, and sit at my computer more or less aimlessly clicking around checking out this and that. Thanks for kicking my behind. Off for coffee and digging up laurels before sub-zero temperatures set in.

    1. Uglemor,

      It is so easy just to sit and click aimlessly, isn't it? I often find myself doing this when I am tired. I am so glad you understood and didn't find me too pathetic!

      I'm also glad you headed onto my blog before you decided to dig up those laurels. Your comment has just made my evening. I am about to turn off the computer and go to bed... early so I get lots of sleep! Maybe tomorrow will be a more productive day.

      I hope you managed to get your digging finished. Sub-zero temperatures? So different from here!

    2. Uglemor,

      I am sorry to hear you're tired. I hope you feel better soon!

      God bless.

  2. Computers can be so addictive! I thought I enjoyed blogging but I was surprised at how much more exciting life became when I stopped. It's hard to explain the difference but it changed everything so much that I doubt I'll go back to blogging, now. The iPad is more of a family toy, now, than my hobby.

    I love the way you make the otherwise tragic sound so funny! I think that's what stops you going insane!

    God bless, Sue xx

    1. Vicky,

      Yes, you are so right: computers can be addictive! Unlike you though, I don't want to stop blogging and communicating via the Internet. I think I will just have to learn more self discipline! The Internet can be good. It just needs to be handled properly. Actually, it's really only on those tired days I have a problem. It's mesmerising. I just sit there too tired to get up and move. It's so easy just to keep clicking and not really thinking. Yes, more self discipline definitely needed!

      I am so glad to hear you're happy and at peace with your new situation though I miss you online. That's the problem: the online world may not seem very real compared to what is actually around me, but it is populated by some very real people. If it wasn't for my computer and Internet, I wouldn't be able to be friends with some wonderful people. I wouldn't even have frequent contact with you. So I am glad I have access to the Internet and I will strive to find a balance when using it.

      I'm glad you laughed and didn't write me off as completely pathetic!

      God bless.

  3. Sue,

    I am RIGHT THERE with you! I've been trying to get away from my computer more, because it's become too much about constantly checking email or reading websites just to pass the time when I'm tired. My writing is starting to suffer for it.

    Yesterday I told people I regularly email that I would be 'away' for the week, which means I didn't feel guilty about not answering straight away. That helps. And after I finish up this morning, I'm staying offline the rest of the day. Not easy, especially when you're used to it (habit-forming!), but I'm going to try.

    I hope you DID get outside and enjoy the weather! It's been beautiful here, too, and I keep reminding myself that winter will be here soon, and we'll be stuck inside more. Better enjoy it while it lasts! :)

    All the best,

    1. Angela,

      I'm so glad you understood! I waste a lot of time online on tired days, time when I could be writing, so you could say my writing is suffering too. I have several novels I'm working on and I'm sure I'd get them finished faster if I stopped visiting the Internet.

      I did get outside yesterday. As soon as I hit 'publish', I closed the computer and went to make that coffee. On the way through the laundry to the garden, I noticed Callum's wet washing waiting in the machine, so I hung it on the line and took all the dry washing from earlier in the day off the line. So two jobs done before I even reached my garden table! I finished a book while sitting outside. I promised I'd review it and was going to do that next, but remembered I'd have to open my computer to write it, so I didn't. I knew if I went back to my computer I'd end up clicking again.

      Summer for us and winter for you! I'd better enjoy going outside too while I can. It can get unpleasant outside in the heat of summer. Does your winter get very cold?

      Thanks for your comment, Angela. I appreciate you stopping and sharing!

    2. Sue -

      I have the same trouble when it comes to writing poems. I write them down on paper, then like to edit on the computer. That means more computer time, so I made a special log-in that doesn't allow Internet access, only access to a text editor (like Microsoft Word). That keeps me honest :)

      It does get very cold here in the winter - highs in the low 40s and lows in the 20s. But this new house has a fire place, and I can't wait to try it out! Plus my son LOVES snow :)


    3. Angela,

      No internet access while you're writing? That's a great idea.

      I just used an online converter to work out how cold those temperatures are in Celsius, because I'm not very familiar with Fahrenheit. Your winters are cold! Maybe you'll share some photos of your son in the snow when it arrives.

      I meant to ask you about NaNoWriMo. I wrote a post about it on my homeschooling blog recently. The girls and I are all set to take up the novel writing challenge again. Will you join us?

    4. Sue -

      I'm not sure if I'm moving back to writing the next book in the AiE series or continuing on with poetry for a while longer. Let me give it some thought, and if I do sign up for NaNoWriMo, I'll let you know!

      Thanks for the heads up, btw - I didn't know it started so soon :)


    5. Angela,

      Yes, NaNoWriMo has crept up on all of us. It doesn't seem a year ago since I wrote my last NaNo novel. I just wish I'd used the following months better, and edited it! Whatever you decide to do, keep writing!

    6. Sue -

      What are you going to be working on this time around? :)

      I think I'm going to keep going on poetry for a while. I DO have a book I want to finish, but I haven't figured out the plot yet, and I'm not sure I'll have time with all the holiday stuff coming up.

    7. Angela,

      I am writing a sequel to my finished and edited children's book, "The Angels of Abbey Creek". This book is all ready to be published. I'm just trying to sort out some illustrations.

      I have made a start on my NaNo novel! Today I wrote more words than the recommended daily quota, so I feel good. I have all the chapters planned out. I know the details of some of them. Others I only have a vague idea, but I am sure ideas will appear when I start writing!

      We don't celebrate Halloween or Thanksgiving, so we are not as busy as you at the moment. There's still plenty of time to think about Christmas. So we are free to write.

      Have you published any of your poetry? I'd love to read some.

    8. This sounds like a WONDERFUL project! I hope you'll let us know when it's available for public consumption =)

      I've got about eight poems out right now, and they can take up to five months to be read/decided on for publication. It's ridiculous. I've had two published before, but that was years ago, pre-baby. If you like I can send you my favorite one that's out at the moment?


    9. Angela,

      I would love to read one of your poems. Poetry writing is something I have never tried. It seems so much more difficult to novel writing. But I do love reading other people's poems!

      I am sure when I finally get something published I will not stop talking about it for a long time! Everyone will get fed up of hearing about it. I shall certainly let you know when that day arrives!

  4. This sounds so frighteningly familiar to me. The computer really can suck away so much time and be the source of so much temptation to idleness. It is hard to find the line between worthwhile internet usage with real purpose and meaningless internet usage for no good reason.

    I know I often struggle to find a healthy balance. But perhaps we shouldn't be too hard on ourselves. Everyone needs a little downtime once in a while and the computer is great for that. Hope you are feeling more energized today and that you enjoyed your time outdoors.

    God Bless, Kari

    1. Kari,

      Like anything the Internet can be good or bad, it just depends on how we use it. I think of the friendships that are formed online, and the good works we all do together, the encouragement and support, the prayers offered... The Internet connects us together. No one has to feel isolated and alone these days. But you are right: a healthy balance is needed. It might be easier to avoid the temptation to idleness by not using the Internet, but I would miss it so much.

      I also agree that the Internet can be good for downtime. I do enjoy catching up with blogs and reading posts on FB, receiving emails from friends... I just need to know when to stop which is difficult on a day when I haven't much energy to do anything else. I don't want to get up and do that ironing. I'd much rather stay clicking away. Perhaps I shall have to close my computer when my coffee mug is empty. Otherwise I am going to be continually confessing to idleness and time wasting!

      I did enjoy going outside yesterday. Spring days can be beautiful. I'm planning on using my garden table more often!

      God bless!


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